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How to Make the Most of Your Cluster Headache Remission

Learning to live with cluster headaches takes a lot of time. You lose a piece of yourself with each attack. The pain is so searing that you want to forget about it as soon as it’s over, but it’s not over. The next cluster headache attack is just a few hours away, causing fear, anger, and depression to sink in. Only you can choose when it’s time to fight back.

It’s easy to be a victim of this incurable disorder, but it becomes more bearable when you decide it doesn’t define. Now, I know it’s not this easy for chronic clusterheads. Being episodic gives us the opportunity to feel “normal” for a portion of the year because we’re in a cluster headache remission, but chronic patients seem more resilient than many episodics I’ve met. How? By making the most of the pain-free time—whether it’s hours, days, weeks or months.

Many of you know I recently published a guidebook to cluster headaches for patients, supporters and medical professionals. It took three years of interviews and research to compile the book that goes into details about what an attack feels like, the difference between cluster and migraine, treatment options, and tips on how to cope with “suicide headaches.” However, most of that work was done in just six months.

I had to put the book away several times because the cluster headaches came back each time I made progress, but over the last summer, I realized it was time to put away my fear and capitalize on my remission period. I spent every free moment working on the book for four months because I knew if I didn’t do it before my next episodic cycle, it would be another year or two before it was completed. Now, as I enter week three of my fall cycle, I’m so glad I pushed myself to finish this project and a few others before the pain set in.

I’ve heard a lot of episodics, including myself, say that they do every activity they can during their remission. For several weeks or months a year, cluster headaches take over your life, so when you’re finally free, you feel that the world is at your fingertips.

Here are a few tips I’ve learned over the years:

Pick a Project to Focus on or Complete Before the Remission Ends

My project this year was to finish the cluster headache book before my remission ended a few weeks ago. It kept me driven and focused, which left little time to dread the upcoming pain. Being able to dive into a project such as a book, event participation such as Clusterbusters conferences, etc. made the last few months less nervewracking. I knew I had a timeline and that pushed me to do as much as I could before the inevitable happened. I’m not the only one to do this. Making the most of your pain-free time is something many of us try to do. We may be sick (whether episodic or chronic), but it doesn’t have to define us. Think about what you’re passionate about, be it something cluster headache related or a subject more personal and close to your heart.

Give Yourself Something to Look Forward To

My cycles last nearly three months, and it’s around month two (usually December) when I really start to struggle. I try to look forward to something such as being able to go out to dinner without worrying about injections and being away from oxygen. I look forward to drinking red wine again, and bacon. Bacon is a big trigger for me, but it’s also one of my favorite foods. What I look forward to most is the clarity of mind that comes when the cycle finally ends. I can rejoin the world and be social again. I used to fly to see a friend in California at the end of each cycle, which was my favorite thing to look forward to. Each of us is different though.

You’ll need to find what inspires you most to keep going when the cluster headache “beast” is knocking on your head at 2 am each night. I’m looking forward to diving into finishing my fiction book (a fantasy novel about being stuck between life and death) in January. I know better than to put pressure on myself to do anything during this cycle. I also look forward to Headache on the Hill because it’s typically a month after my fall cycle ends.

It’s Okay if You Don’t Get it Done, Just Start

You don’t have to paint the Mona Lisa, write the next bestseller, or anything grandiose. Additionally, it’s more than okay if you don’t finish. Starting the project (and not feeling bad about pressing pause!) is the hardest part. It took me three years to complete the book for a reason. I went from working on it full-time for six months, to juggling a 40-hour work week and the book, to handling a 40-hour work week, the book and cluster headaches. It’s impossible to deal with everything life throws at you and finish your goals at the same time. Don’t feel bad that it’s not done, just start.

I hope this is helpful to other episodic clusterheads, and maybe some chronics too. Cluster headaches don’t define you. You have talent and skill that shouldn’t go to waste when you’re not in pain.

Pain-free wishes!

Clusterhead Survivor Video Blog Features Hattle’s Cluster Headache Book

Tom Termeer is a chronic clusterhead who regularly shares his experience with cluster headaches and chronic pain in his People in Pain video blog on YouTube, ClusterHeadSurvivor. Tom is an amazing individual and dear friend. He created the Cluster/Suicide Headache decals and even made t-shirts to raise awareness for cluster headaches in Canada and the United States. He was kind enough to include my cluster headache book in this video and is quite surprised when he realizes he’s featured on the back cover. Please like and subscribe to learn more about Tom and cluster headaches and follow @CluterHeadTom on Twitter.

Why You Need to Attend the Clusterbusters Conferences for Cluster Headache

The Clusterbusters conferences are unmatched by any other medical gathering of patients. These annual events bring hundreds of cluster headache patients together, which is a life-changing experience for many, including myself. (The 2018 conference for cluster headache patients by Clusterbusters is in Denver, Colorado, September 13th-16th. Learn more and sign up here.) Bob Wold, the founder of the nonprofit organization, has dedicated more than 15 years of his life to furthering research and raising awareness for this misunderstood disorder.

Clusterbusters spearheaded the research at Harvard and Yale with psilocybin and psychedelics. They’ve also contributed to the decreasing number of years it takes to reach a proper diagnosis. Ten or more years ago, it took up to eight years or longer for a doctor or neurologist to correctly diagnose a clusterhead, causing them to go years without high-flow oxygen and other essential treatments. Thanks to Clusterbusters and other head pain advocacy groups, the average time to diagnosis is closer to two years now.

My first Clusterbusters conference was in 2014. I went to Nashville (the conference locations change each year. Denver is the 2018 location.) with a camera, a voice recorder and pen and paper prepared to hunker down and do more than a dozen interviews and soak in as much knowledge as I could. I found all of that and more. I walked into the welcome reception and found an overwhelming sense of love and understanding. Many of these people took me in immediately and shared more wisdom with me than eight months of research had taught me. My cluster headache book became more than an outlet of information for new patients. I needed to tell their stories. The trials that patients and their supporters face every day is more difficult than you can understand.

2018 conference for cluster headaches | Denver | cluster headache patientsThe 12th Annual Clusterbusters Conference took place two weeks ago in Chicago from September 14-16. There were more than 200 attendees registered, which is more than any other year. Ainslie Course was a fantastic moderator, and Eileen Brewer planned a flawless event as usual. Dr. Brian McGeeney, our favorite neurologist, from the Boston Medical Center speaks at the event every year. Dr. McGeeney and Dr. Larry Schor‘s speeches are the most important ones to sit in on for newcomers and returning attendees.

Erika McDermott also gave a stunning speech about her personal experience that left not a dry eye in the conference room. Other speakers included Dr. Emmanuelle Schindler from Yale University, Hans-Joerg Tangermann of Germany, and many others. gammaCore® talked about their vagus nerve stimulator which has shown great promise in treating acute attacks, and Katie Golden, Dr. Robert Shapiro and I were on the Advocacy Panel to discuss how we can continue to raise awareness and funding for cluster headaches and other types of head pain.

Bob Wold Present Ashley Hattle with Exceptional Education in Cluster Headaches award

The Clusterbuster event reminds us all that we’re not alone and several thousand online viewers were able to see snippets of speeches. This year’s conference was particularly exhilarating for me because my book, Cluster Headaches: A Guide to Surviving One of the Most Painful Conditions Known to Mandebuted the week prior. Wold and Brewer were kind enough to give me a table to do book signings, and I sold out on the first day of the conference. I was honored to receive the award for “Exceptional Education in Cluster Headache” from the organization.

The most meaningful moment for me, however, was handing Wold a copy of my book. His experience and expertise along with many others made my book possible, and I’m truly amazed at the response to the book. I set out to help the newly diagnosed. I set out to write the book I needed when I was diagnosed. I ended up with a thorough guide to cluster headaches that can help new and old patients and also family, friends, and physicians of patients.

I can’t praise this organization or event enough. I highly recommend attending one if you can. It doesn’t matter if you have clusters or if you know a friend of a friend who has clusters, this yearly gathering will forever change your perspective on living with one of the most insidious pains a human being can experience.

If you’re interested in checking out the cluster headache book, view sample pages and reviews on Amazon and order a copy here or on Amazon Prime in the U.S. and Europe.

Your Guide to Cluster Headaches Now Available

After three years of interviews and research, Ashley S. Hattle has written and published a book that every person with cluster headaches should own. The answers to those burning questions you have scoured the internet for are now in one place. Cluster Headaches: A Guide to Surviving One of the Most Painful Conditions Known to Man is your one-stop shop for managing cluster headaches, finding treatments that work for you, and learning how to fight against the stigma associated with the word “headache.”

This book isn’t just for cluster headache patients. It’s for your families and your physicians. There’s a chapter on how to support someone with cluster headaches and another one on what doctors need to listen for and how to treat this painful condition. It’s for anyone in your life who’s struggling to understand your disorder, including you. From the steps to take following your diagnosis to how you can be involved in research and advocacy efforts, Hattle’s book provides a much-needed perspective and thorough information about cluster headaches using patient testimonies, research studies, and neurologist expertise.

Buy your copy today at https://ashleyhattle.com/ or purchase an autographed copy at the upcoming 12th Annual Clusterbusters Conference in Chicago, Illinois on September 14th through the 16th.

About the Author

Ashley S. Hattle is a Michigan-based writer and photographer with a B.A. in Journalism from the Metropolitan State University in Denver, Colorado. Hattle is the author of the newly-released, comprehensive cluster headache book—Cluster Headaches: A Guide to Surviving One of the Most Painful Conditions Known to Man. Hattle has been featured in worldwide competitions and experienced episodic cluster headaches since 2007.

She hopes to continue her work by creating a series titled “Patient View Books” to help patients who suffer from other brain disorders and mental illnesses understand their medical condition and treatment options.

As a professional writer, Hattle spends her days writing medical content and freelance articles for various online and print publications. By night, she explores the depths of her imagination, creating short stories filled with strong messages of heroes and villains, truth and lies. Her favorite authors include James Rollins, Jeff Long, Daniel Keyes, John Connolly, and (of course) J.K. Rowling.

Hattle is also the founder of ASH Photographs and offers portrait and event photography to clients in the Southwest Michigan area including St. Joseph, Benton Harbor, Stevensville, and Niles.